When your brain is mush what do you do?

I feel so distraught at all times, i’ve never been so thankful it’s a 3 day week for me. Holiday and then doctors appointment. I know they won’t take out my tonsils so I have to lock in and take my test soon, but i’m a mess.

I can’t focus mentally, I have so much unsaid to so many people. I can’t help but feel like an inconvenience for having thoughts and feelings, I just want to shrink myself. This is the best time to do it, everyone is off and everyone has their own stuff. Maybe it’s time for me to deal with my own shit and leave everyone alone.